Unbreakable Bond

As a mother it is hard to find the words to describe the deep, unconditional love we have for our children. There just aren’t words strong enough to describe a mother’s love. From the moment we conceive we feel a bond to that sweet little baby growing inside of us. We’d lay down our lives for them in a heartbeat, take away their pain if we could. We’d do anything to see that little smile, to hear them laugh. As a single mother I’ve watched that bond grow. My son and I have always been close, but now that it’s … Continue reading

Blowing Off Steam

Having an ex adds a lot of undue stress in your life; have children with that ex and the stress multiplies by about a hundred…thousand…ok, it’s more like an infinite amount of stress that never ends with the signing of the decree. You’d think it get easier now that you’re not together, but it’s actually a lot harder when neither one of you is trying to make things work anymore. My ex and I try to keep things as civil as possible when it comes to Logan. I don’t want him to ever feel caught in the middle of his … Continue reading

Will It Ever End?

My little brother left on an LDS mission in November. I must admit I felt some relief at his departure because I had hoped that would mean that the drama with his father would at least decrease in his absence. Unfortunately that has been far from the case. My heart aches at what his father is putting him through in an already difficult situation. After seeing some of the things he has been saying since leaving on his mission I am appalled at the pure selfishness emanating in each letter. Coming from a divorced family there are so many difficult … Continue reading

Lucky as the Tin Man

  We’ve all seen the classic tale of the Wizard of Oz. The cowardly lion is desperate for courage, the scarecrow is in need of a brain, and our dear friend the tin man wants nothing more than heart to fill his empty chest. After my divorce I would have given anything to be the tin man. My heart was aching. I was feeling such an intense pain I would have done anything to make it stop. Nothing brought relief. I wasn’t ready to be divorced. I wasn’t ready to be on my own again, but I had no choice … Continue reading

Confessions of a Single Mom

When they placed my son in my arms over four years ago there were some things I swore I would never do. As a single mom it got harder to keep all those promises to myself and as guilty as I feel, I have done a fair number of them. So here it goes, here are a few confessions from a single mom. This morning my son had chips for breakfast. We were a half an hour late for church, his shoes were on the wrong feet, I couldn’t find my keys (as usual), and I had to gather all … Continue reading

Intensity

In the beginning of your single parenting journey you may feel overwhelmed at the tasks that lay before you. Your entire world has shifted. This is unknown territory and you are frightened at the prospect of facing this challenge alone. You will do it, because there is no one else to do it for you, but it is ok to be afraid. There are times you will feel as if you are trying to breathe underwater. The intensity of all emotions grows with single parenting. The stresses are bigger, the pain is greater, the injustice is constant, but also, the … Continue reading

In the Blink of an Eye

Tonight as I was getting Logan ready for bed he asked if he could see the video of him in my tummy. As I sat watching that little boy wriggling around in my belly I couldn’t help but feel a little sad. Where has the time gone? That precious little baby is turning four this month! How did this happen? He is growing up so fast; I just want to savor every second. So often as single parents we get caught up in the never-ending list of things to do, that we forget to lay the stress aside and just … Continue reading

Feeling Replaced

After struggling through a divorce it can be heart wrenching when your ex finds someone new. Not because you still want to be with them, but because there is now someone new in your children’s lives. For some of us it can be difficult to trust your ex’s judgment about the people they bring in and out of their lives. While you knew the day would eventually come when you both moved on, it can be difficult when the time actually comes. It can bring on a whole new range of emotions. It may feel as if old wounds have … Continue reading

The Monkees’ Davy Jones Dead at 66

If you turned on the radio today and heard a Monkees song, you might not have thought much about it. But, the radio station I listen to played several Monkee songs in a row and for a sad reason. The Monkees lead singer Davy Jones died today of a heart attack at the age of 66. My son is in second grade and when I was that age, I loved the Monkees. I mean, I LOVED them. I had their posters all over my walls, forced my parents to watch their television show – I was just terribly smitten. Of … Continue reading

Count Your Blessings

It has been a difficult couple of weeks with so many year marks packed right together. So much has happened over the past year and while I am in a much better place than I was a year ago, it still has been an emotional time for me. It has brought many of the feelings back to the surface and I have had to find a way to cope with things all over again. Needless to say, for a moment there, I was feeling a little sorry for myself. However, I was quickly reminded of just how lucky I really … Continue reading